Lately I have been thinking about the great mumma community we have created on The best gift of life. I am so grateful and astounded at the growth and success of it all and enjoy being able to share small snippets of the lives of some inspiring mums within our insta community. However, and I don’t mean to put a negative spin on things, but lately I have been struggling with motherhood and also having troubles with my relationship which is leaving me feeling ashamed and embarrassed that I am not living the same lives as these inspiring mums I am interviewing everyday. I know that might sound silly but it has even started to make me think of deleting my social media accounts.
I totally understand that people do not tend to share their struggles on social media and like to share happy snaps with clean backdrops, a smiling baby, perfect poses and positivity all round, I get it, I do it too. But sometimes I hate it. I LOVE when I see a post with a mamma still in her pajamas in the afternoon, with messy hair, no make-up, a screaming toddler, and a truthful straight to the point comment.
To be honest I thought I’d be the perfect mother – I was the oldest child and helped bring up my 2 siblings, I have babysat, studied child care, worked in day cares and as a nanny, and have always loved spending time with kids, especially toddlers, and I am now on the home stretch of my teaching degree. I pictured myself with the perfect family life – A loving husband, a smiling obedient child, fun family outings, dinner on the table each night etc etc. Although I have come to the realization now that that is not my life. I am not married, my toddler is definitely NOT obedient, we do go on family outings – but they almost always end up with a distressed tantrum chucking toddler and an equally stressed out mamma who is regretting the whole outing, and half the week dinners are things like eggs on toast – certainly not these perfect nutritious family meals you see on Pinterest.
I mean of course we don’t want to share negativity on social media but it is nice to know sometimes that you are not alone in saying that motherhood is hard, it is not all smiles and happy families. I guess that is why i am writing this – to let you know that you are not alone. Don’t get me wrong I love being a mum, the good moments definitely outweigh the bad – When Ellis crawls into bed with me each morning and I slowly trace his face or hands, or when he falls and hurts himself and he comes running to me for that small kiss which instantly makes everything better. In the end I know he loves me and I love him and I know I am doing the best I can in my circumstances and that is all that matters.
Love and light,